jocelyncee | wow. the thought-mill is going again. and this time I am grateful.

I had an iffy afternoon, while I sat around being paranoid that I was making my friends uncomfortable by being uncomfortable. That thought process is exactly the hamster-wheel that it sounds like -- it does me and no one else any good.

Then I read this post by

mipuravida, and a reminder-lightbulb goes off. Remember, Jocelyn? it says. Remember a few months ago, when you were just going to enjoy your time in Germany, and enjoy the time you got with the people you got it with, purely for its own sake, and not worry about what happened or didn't happen? Remember when you were living life on life's terms?

Thank you, Robyn... now I do. I remember.

I may have amends to make, and there may be words to say, but I will not know what they should be until it is time for me to say them, if ever. The amends may need to be in my living and behavior, not some apology made for times I may have offended or imposed.

Right now, what sounds the best to me, the most healthy, is to take things as they come, and to relax and be myself. Thank you, Robyn, for the reminder to treasure every moment.